That cringing feeling inflames your body.
Flushing through you,
all the thoughts come rushing.
oooh why did I say that?
that was so strange.
maybe she took offense
I hope it didn’t come off that way.
they can see through me-
to all of my insecurities.
A never-ending litany of worries
boiling
down
to that one basic fear:
They won’t get me.
I’m going to be misunderstood.
My true intentions,
morphed and mutated
by the imprecision of my words.
My brain can’t think on its feet quickly enough
to envelop the expanse of my meaning.
Or, alternatively,
it can’t work patiently enough to mold the billowing thoughts down
to a laser beam point that is
my intention.
Forever lost and floating
inside our heads,
our thoughts become ineffable creatures
only understandable to ourselves.
Sequestered in their
chattering cage of busyness.
Rarely revealing themselves
to the bright, blinding warmth of light
that is
other people
seeing you.
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